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A week ago,
dad said:
Nic,
I'm going to hiking next Monday,
not this coming Monday,
next Monday.
You wanna join?
Hiking?
Yeah of course.
I love outdoor activities!
People around Nicole,
who doesn't know Nicole love outdoor?
Who doesn't know Nicole love to do exciting stuffs?
I simply say a yes to daddy,
and I am booked.
On 3 days before,
which is Friday.
I went to breakfast with grandparents.
We went for seafood noodle,
and I ate prawn.
My close friend will know I am allergic to prawn.
Even Sunday I refused to go to church.
But end up dad force me to,
and I went there.
Glad that I went there,
I love that cutey Greece pastor.
He is not tall or strong,
he is just normal.
But the jokes he shared,
is funny.
Thanks Pastor Dean.
(His Greek name is longer than anyone else.)
And then here comes today.
I slept at 8 yesterday night,
and woke up around 2 am and then I never lay a finger on my bed.
I was waiting waiting waiting and waiting for some one.
It's a real pain in the ass,
I did not talk to him.
I am kinda upset.
But it doesn't matter much,
I should get use to it.
6 AM morning,
I cook myself a CQYD.
Just in case you don't know what is it:
[IMG]http://img348.rockyou.com/imagehost/13/13694/13694068/13694068_c9e4e43f1225134810_m.jpg[/IMG]
This is a lame picture taken few days ago,
ignore my face and hair.
Eyes on the instant noodle.
That's what I cook for myself this morning!
And then I shower,
and then I make-up.
Yeah sure did,
I make-up and wore my blue lens.
I know I know,
I am insane to make-up to hiking and climb those bloody rocks.
But you know,
as a girl,
I take some pictures of course,
and if without make up...
Not yeng already lorh..
No else girl as pretty as me liao lorh!
Cause I am the only girl who know what to use,
to prevent my make-up from melting together with the sweat.
Around 7 plus,
dad woke up and busy packing.
And then we took the lift,
to the car park.
And then we were on our way to Bukit Melawati!
Or whatever similar name,
'cause I forgot the name.
Forget about the details and just skip.
Okay,
we shall start at:
Hiking!
I will not write every single detail,
I will just tell the part I think it's inspired.
I am so glad that dad decided to go with me,
dad always stop me from doing exciting stuffs.
He was very worried about me,
when I was standard 6 or form 1,
I went to a camp.
And that was the first and last time I went hiking.
Okay,
we started.
We walk by our feet of course,
the first minutes I step into the bloody Bukit I was like:
Uhh..
I should go home.
That was the thought in my mind.
But then,
I have no choice isn't it?
If I give up just like this,
I will miss a chance to be with daddy,
and I will stay in the car and wait for them?
Hell no.
And very stupid me,
I forgot to warm up.
And the steps are real big,
and soon my legs was a little over stretch.
But sooner or later,
it's better.
After 15 minutes of walking some natural 'stairs' I guess.
I am not going to tell the details!
And then I think we were almost half way already,
starting to climb upper upper and upper.
Those bloody rocks is sharp!
When you climb,
you have to grip somewhere you think it's 'gripable',
and then your feet have to step on somewhere you think it's safe.
Remember not to use your hand to pull yourself up,
use your feet to push you up.
Your hand can't afford the weight by pulling,
so just use your damn feet.
Do not look down,
make sure the step you're stepping are safe before stepping on it.
Some rocks are weaken already.
Don't panic,
slowly one step and then another step.
Yeah I know I sounds like I did great.
But nope!
Tell you more later.
I am just sharing what dad and Kuay and another Kit told me.
Let's share our group picture:
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It was the starting.
Yeah only two girls,
and I am the youngest among them.
They are mostly my dad's colleague.
In front of me is my dad with contact lens,
and then in front of dad is Kuay.
And the guy who is sitting beside(left) of the girl in the middle is kit.
He is an expert.
Dad was very annoying.
HAHA!
He care about me too much,
its like every step I moved,
he yelled:
Nic,watch out!
or
Nic,be careful!
or
Nic,slowly!
I am going to tell you every single detail,
now I will skip to the hardest part.
Man,
It was the best yet worst decisions I have made!
This:
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Climbing down with that robe!
My both hands was totally red 'cause I have to support my weight with my both hands!
And slowly,
step by step from rock to rock.;
There is a easier way to our destination.
Dad keep on asking me to go to the easier way!
But I made my own decision and I tell dad:
I am going where you are going,
don't shoo me away.
That is not the main reason.
The main reason is,
I don't wanna miss any part.
I don't know will I come again,
(I keep repeating I will not but who knows?)
If it is the truth,
I wanna be proud and tell everyone,
Nicole gone thru all the toughest part!
There are many of us,
but everyone went to the easier way!
Only me, Kuay Kit and Daddy.
And those guys with nuts,
where were them?
They look for an excuse to run off,
they said people are too slow,
they are going to the easier way,
which is faster.
So what?
You might be waiting in front,
waiting for us.
But I fought my fear,
climb down with only a robe.
You guys might be faster,
but you guys lost.
Not to me,
not to daddy.
To your fear.
Your fear of hurt,
your fear of height and your fear of death.
[IMG]http://img321.rockyou.com/imagehost/13/13694/13694556/13694556_55aab0d81225137509_m.jpg[/IMG]
This is the picture dad took while we were waiting for the robe.
I like this fake smile on my face.
The sweat of me and my messy hair.
They are the symbol of working hard.
I am gonna put this picture in my room!
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Kuay was helping me,
and everyone cheer me.
Also those unknown!
I am a sixteen-years-old girl,
if it was you,
will you take the risk or just simply walk to the destination with a easier way?
And what made them fear wasn't the height only,
and also the accident happened there.
Someone fell off from there to the lowest place.
It was half way which means the top already!
If I am not mistaken,
she's a girl.
She is now save,but comma I guess.
There is two times,
to climb down the robe.
But the first is the hardest!
The second one nothing.
[IMG]http://img288.rockyou.com/imagehost/13/13694/13694522/13694522_2a66005e1225137320_m.jpg[/IMG]
This is the only picture,
you can't see how hard to climb the rocks here.
Cause when Kuay got this picture,
I am there already.
You can see daddy's behind of me.
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These pictures are the view from the higher part of the Bukit.
Let's continue.
And then very very very sadly,
my toes are hurt.
Because I did not cut my nails,
and it hurts a lot.
Until when we were going down,
my feet are in pain.
I have some walk very slowly,
everyone else cut my line.
Dad suggest to carry me,
but I said no!
I came up by myself,
and I will go down by myself.
Dad was really sam tong..
You know why?
Cause every move I made was torturing.
I keep my mouth close,
cause I don't want dad to hear me screaming in pain.
Every step was killing me,
killing me slowly.
And finally,
we made it.
Dad was so impress.
He said he is very proud of me.
He have always been proud of me.
Everything.
Cause I am who I am.
Dad is some kind of real Chinese man.
He don't give me any compliment no matter how hard I tried or
whatsoever result I get.
He did not tell me well done,
when I got the gold metal of 4x100 last year.
He did not when the teachers tell him:
Nicole did a great job.
After the net ball competition she ran to the badminton court
for the competition with her huge badminton bag.
She was so tired and she lost by only a point.
And right after the badminton competition,
she went for 4x100.
Dad did not say a word.
He nudged.
That's all.
But I know in his heart,
he has always proud of me.
I am his pride.
I am very smart.
Just like him.
When I was 9,
I have to choose activities in school.
I planned to join chess club,
cause I am good in chess.
I mean was.
And one of my classmate's bone was broken,
he could not take any sport club.
And the teacher in charge put me into volleyball club,
and the guy to chess club.
And since after the first day I learn volleyball,
the coach put me into the school team.
And in 3 years I represent the school,
I got two gold and one silver.
And this made me the girl leader of volleyball school team.
Dad never come to any of my competition.
Never say a word when I got the silver or even gold metal.
When I was 12,
my UPSR year,
my dad wants me to get into a private school.
And I went to the test,
I simply fill up with answers.
And then I went home.
Few days later,
the result is out.
Dad checked,
and I am in the first class.
Dad keep on saying I won't pass,
but in his heart,
he knew it.
He knew I will make it.
He was proud that his daughter is in the first class.
Until my secondary school life,
I was choose to sing in the choir.
There are two thousands of pupils,
and I am one of the three person who is chosen.
Dad did not say a word,
but I knew he is proud of me.
When I was just a fresh man,
I went for an English elocution competition.
And I get in the final very easily.
And I was one of the top 5 in the school,
dad did not say a word,
not even a nudge.
But today,
dad said he is very proud of me.
He is very happy that I did not give up.
(He thought I will give up very soon.)
He said I was so good,
I took the risky way to go.
Even better than those nutless guy.
If you understand what I mean by nutless.
Yeah,
I might be the slowest!
I might be the youngest!
So what?
I made my dad proud and I did not rest at all when I was going down.
No doubt I was in pain.
But I was very slow already,
I don't wanna waste my times anymore.
Hiking is similar with life.
You're going up and down.
No matter how high you've been,
until the end,
you still have to go down.
Yeah it might be tiring,
but what to do?
Your life is started,
you can't just simply end it.
Unless,
you wanna jump down.
And this will cause you death.
Yeah we have no choice to be born or not,
but we have our choice to choose the risky way or the easier way.
And every step we make,
we should be very careful.
And yeah,
Nicole got home safely.
But there is a lot of fault step I have made.
I stepped on some rocks I should not step on.
What I gotta do is just remember not to step on it next time.
;]
If you are planning on a hiking trip,
please don't go to this Bukit.
It is hard for first time hiker.
Lastly,
share some nice pictures of me:
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Don't you think this picture look like I am in somewhere else in Europe?
LOL!
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Daddy me and his colleague.
Guess how old is him?
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Yeah I sweat like hell.
And my teeth,
I mean my gum!
Bleeding~~
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Life.
I'm still thinking.
Should I cut or leave?
If Evan and me have a baby girl,
I'll name her Victoria.
Isn't it beautiful?
Sexy name.
If we have a boy,
I'll name him Dylan.
I like this name.
Or maybe Victor to match the baby girl?
Ahh,
leave it.
I'm just sixteen.
10 more years at least.
But I can't wait.
Arrgg!
Not in the mod today.
So,
ciao.
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Is it a good start or not?
Today i introduce Leonard to KK.
Leo is just a guy i know for few days,
and we've never seen each other before.
But i had some kind of feeling,
he's a nice guy.
And a very good friend as well.
If he's still in Malaysia I bet we will become very close friend.
I bet KK was in real shock when I told her one of my friend would like to know her.
I guess they are going well,
they exchanged number.
Yeah,KK is Malaysian,
so do Leo.
I mean,
Leo was Malaysian.
LOL
KK thinks she's not pretty and fat,
yeah right.
KK,
Nic is being very honest now.
You are pretty,
you might not be the prettiest
and there might be girls who's prettier,
but you are still pretty.
Okay?
Trust me.
Well,
I'm still thinking.
Do you think I should cut my hair or leave it long?
Sigh.
If really wanna cut hor..
I want something like this.
Or maybe i should buy a wig?
Hmm..
How come so many decisions to make one?
Do you think I should buy N73 ME or w580i or w910i?
If N73 ME I'll be using the same model with Evan.*smile*
I wanted W580i so much,
but end up I heard that there's a lot of problem with the key pad.
W910i don't have white and pink cover wor..
I want to match with my room,
pink and white...
Sigh sigh..
So many decisions to make.
Wish darling's here with me.
I miss a lot of movies lately.
Wish I could 'chase' them back.
You know what?
Yesterday some random guy in MSN,
(who said himself is a Malaysian who's now studying in UK)
said he likes me.
He ask:
Can i like you even you have a boyfriend?
noway.
I love my boyfriend.
I told him it's not like or love.
It's just admire.
Because i have a good-looking face.
As if I'm a very fat girl or I'm ugly,
you'll never fall anymore.
He said:
I admit I'm falling for your face.
And I reply:
You've never seen me in real life,
it's silly to do this.
He said:
I've been looking at you for like a year.
I'm just afraid to talk to you.
I did not believe duh.
of course!
If you did like me for a year,
why don't you split it out earlier?
And I did not on my MSN so long,
I hardly have time to on it.
Please don't lie to me.
I'm not a silly teen.
I would not fall for some sweet mouth.
And today there is a weird girl keep asking me about some sexual questions.
Or something private.
She's fifteen.
And she's kinda annoying.
Even ask me to take picture of wearing my bra.
Is she lesbian?
Gosh.
Kids nowadays are weird.
Parents,
please take good care of your child.
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I did something bad today.
It's not bad but i fell guilty.
I slept at 10 in the morning,
woke up at 6 evening.
I on MSN,
and chat.
Yeah,KK.
Your secret is safe with me^^
unless, I speak in my dreams.
Else,
Evan also will never know this little secret between you and me.
*wink*
Today I realize,
friends are really important.
After me and Evan hooked up,
I lost my friends slowly.
The world of mine was only him.
Even my family,
I had forgotten.
After i chat with Thomas,
I realize that all my close friends' contact are lost.
Slowly one by one,
they had gone.
They did not abandon me,
me is the one who leave them.
I broke the promise,
I left them.
I should not blame anyone,
not Evan not the friends.
It was me,
who said friendship last forever,
and who left.
Sorry guys,
it's my fault.
From now on,
I will cherish every friendship.
Everyone in my life.
I don't think you have a chance to run.
Come back to me.
Change topic.
I hate those guys who fool girls' heart.
They are losers.
Who the hell do you think you are?
A gorgeous guy?
A genius or what?
Don't mention love this word when you don't know it's definition.
Don't even think about it,
you bastard.
Quote M2M [Don't say you love me]:
Don't say you love me,
you don't even know me,
if you really want me,
then give me some times.
Don't go there baby,
not before I'm ready.
Don't says your heart's in a hurry,
it's not like we gonna get married,
give me give me some times.
Here the latest me dad and baby Nat:
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Dad did not go to badminton for today,
and he forgot his phone.
Just now,
about 5 minutes ago,
Me and Evan argued.
Why am i so silly.
I understand the men in my life,
but they don't understand me.
I'm not getting mad for no reason.
He went to CC almost everyday,
but he don't even give a shit about on his bloody MSN to chat with me awhile.
He knew I lost my phone.
And few day ago I even waited until 8a.m. and he never on!
He told me he'll on later.
And I told him on the second day,
he giggled.
Fuck off.
Guys always have reason for something they did which upset girls.
Am i too much?
Others always think we're such a sweet pair,
we'll never argue.
Ivan is such a good guy,
he'll do whatsoever Nicole ask for.
It's Nicole who's demanding.
Yeah right.
I'm not saying that I'm holy.
Yeah,
it's normal for couple to argue.
But sometimes I'm too tired to continue this kind of relationship.
Long distance relationship is very shitty.
Yeah baby,
sorry.
I heart you.
I'm thinking of changing my style.
What kind of style should I change into?
A real sweet cutey girl?
A sexy gorgeous girl?
Should i cut it or leave it?
Maybe I should buy a wig.
Yeah I should.
I should have a part-time job,
and then earn more and buy more clothes!
And I wanna buy a new spec.
I wanna make myself look like genius in school,
ha ha.
You know that kind of gorgeous spec?
And daddy doesn't like me to wear mini skirt,
but I don't give a shit.
It's not like only girls nowadays or so-called modern girl wear mini skirt.
I remember in a 60's 70's movie,
those young girls wear short tight dress and mini skirt too!
And before that already have bikini,
why is daddy stopping me to wear it?
Ahh,
daddy I know.
You are worry about my safety.
But I am who I am,
no matter how I'm still Nicole right?
You one and only lovely daughter.
No matter what kind of style I'm in,
whatsoever your friends said or whoever said it's not graceful,
I'm still me.
Just ignore them,
they are just jealous.
They don't have a pretty and smart daughter like you.
I'm real special for you,
right?
Which one of your friend have a teen daughter like me?
In a sweet sixteen like me?
They don't have.
If their daughter grow up,
they will become like me too.
Fell in love with fashion and trend.
They don't understand girls.
You are the best dad.
Maybe others does not agree,
but you are the best for me.
The hero of my life.
The sweetest guy ever.
I love you forever daddy.
I can't afford to lose you.
Yeah,
even you'll be in heaven one day,
but still...
I can't let you go.
Do you remember when I was just a kiddo?
You use to tell me some kind of idiotic story,
like the mermaid story which is not original?
You think it yourself.
And i use to tell you:
Daddy,let's don't grow old.
I wanna be with you forever.
I wish the time could stop.
Stop in this moment forever.
Every time i realize I'm getting older,
I know we're getting near.
Getting near to death,
my goddamn tears will drip.
I don't want to let you do daddy.
I love you.
Dear Lord,
Please let dad live longer.
And when he have to leave,
in peace.
No pain,no hurt,no worries.
Thanks.
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This is a new start.
This is the new blog of me,
I named it nicolish.
The old one I've forgot the password,
and even the e-mail and everything.
ROFL.
I went to Pyramid today,
for no reason.
New balance,Adidas and Nike pun can't get a pair of pretty tennis shoes.
By the way,
Dad bought me a new adidas two days ago.
A blend of pink and white,
and a little gray,
and a little more black under it.
I'm going to paint my room to pink!
And then all the furniture in white.
I bought them in Ikea.
But not the mattress,
the workers in Ikea was too long and Nathaniel was crying because of his hungriness.
I'm so damn bad luck lately,
I lost my phone in KLCC.
I thought people who hang out in KLCC wouldn't steal and take stuffs that is not belong to them!
Anyway,
I'm going to buy a second hand N73 ME.
So that I can have a 'couple phone' with Evan. <3>
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Name: NIC duenna
Home: KL, Malaysia
About Me: I am a sixteen year-old girl,yeah I know I doesn't look like I'm sixteen.People always think that I'm not malaysian or i speak only english or thinking I'm a Japanese. Taken by a cute guy from Sabah,we lived together for like a year and he went back to Sabah now.No worries,he'll be back in three years!And then here comes my dad.He's the greatest man ever,he knows everything.I mean,whatsoever is 'out-of-service' in the house,he can fix it even it's a microwave.(He did that)And my baby brother,he's younger than me fifteen years,but he's just too cute!I love him.These three are the guys in my life.I love them.
See my profile...
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